Oh it's been a while,,,since the last I wrote here.
I am in japan now, finished a semester in Australia. Then, worked for a couple of weeks in Brisbane, traveled for a days.
Just before being back home I went to Malaysia and Singapore. iT was just the open door of backpacker traveling to me.... how exciting it was, i realised a lots,,, lots of facts, even myself.
Well,,,, after I'm back home it's been terrible time for me, the relationship with my family, (Im not going to write about it,, it was hell), I lost motivation for my life I don't know what I want now and for a life ahead.
It became lots better now. I wasn't really ready to write about my life even here during August. I belong to some SNS, myspace, facebook, mixi, but I thought nothing would help me as I really need, that's I learned this time, how helpless that kind of vertual relationsip is.
Ok, now my situaiton is not that bad, I am living in the flat share again(but not same place as before). But with no job,,,well I have to think about it. And I have to get job interview. I've got one already and I haevn't got answer, it's not hopefull. well I have to think a bit more.
I don'T know if I do hold some hope living in this society, I am completely lost right now!!!!! I am sure that less ,even less than before, people can talk to me currently, I mean, I am looking at different direction from ones of everyone. I've had several situation that I've got argue and it became having a go with a friend I had before I went to Australia. Seriously, am I really unacceptable in this society? hi-------- scarely.
I am thinking about a job i will have.
I do want to continue my study but I will do it later on. My parents are not so rich and I do have to earn some money if I want to keep on.
hu- I will try to write more, in English I feel more open to espress my feeling. Also I should be more skillful to constract my argue and explanation to people in written text.
I want to be a person who feel thank and being happy everyday.
I need to train and getting consult sometimes?? I guess?